I woke up this morning feeling extremely low. From the time I landed till I fell asleep as early as 9 pm, the thought hadn't sunk in, maybe because I was too busy cleaning and arranging my room last evening. Now that I missed my morning breakfast (not that I'd have eaten dosa anyways!) I am sitting here in my room thinking of ways to finish my work as soon as possible and take life a step further.
Most days I move ahead believing that I am doing the right thing; for a better future, a secure one. Then I go home and become a completely new person. The thing about growing up or living in small towns is the fact that you are happy with the bare minimum or with whatever is on offer. Wasn't this what I learnt from my stint abroad? Too much consumerism was great at one level, but it also made people cringe and become all the more miserable. This is why I say my village in South Sikkim is perhaps the most comforting place in the world for me -- in sync with tradition and nature.
Currently I have this overwhelming feeling that I must concentrate on what next? I had a gazillion things to do and although my parents did not indicate anything of this sort, I felt the urgency to wrap up and take on more responsibilities. I have been questioning myself a lot lately. I know I am too principled for my own liking and need to loosen up. In a previous post I mentioned how at times we take life too seriously. I do not wan't to hit 70 or 80 to realize that none of this matters, that I should have just enjoyed the ride while it lasted.
Most days I move ahead believing that I am doing the right thing; for a better future, a secure one. Then I go home and become a completely new person. The thing about growing up or living in small towns is the fact that you are happy with the bare minimum or with whatever is on offer. Wasn't this what I learnt from my stint abroad? Too much consumerism was great at one level, but it also made people cringe and become all the more miserable. This is why I say my village in South Sikkim is perhaps the most comforting place in the world for me -- in sync with tradition and nature.
Currently I have this overwhelming feeling that I must concentrate on what next? I had a gazillion things to do and although my parents did not indicate anything of this sort, I felt the urgency to wrap up and take on more responsibilities. I have been questioning myself a lot lately. I know I am too principled for my own liking and need to loosen up. In a previous post I mentioned how at times we take life too seriously. I do not wan't to hit 70 or 80 to realize that none of this matters, that I should have just enjoyed the ride while it lasted.
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