Earlier this evening I heard the word swimming after
a really long time. Confession: as soon as I reached home, I tried on
both my swimming costumes just to get a sense of what it really felt
like to be a swimmer. Having been a dedicated swimmer during my school
days, it seems such a waste to not cash in on this talent now. The
conversation started off with my boyfriend mentioning that his cousin
was planning a trip for us all to a lovely resort in South Sikkim. First
things first, I think my boyfriend deserves a name in this blog. Just
as I write under a pen name, I wouldn't want to reveal his real name so I
have decided to call him Dengyal (and I have a good reason for this believe me).
Most
of my posts are rephrased to hide details of what I may be entirely
feeling while typing. I am conscious of you readers (read the note on
your left hand side if you still have doubts) but tonight I am going to
let the words flow freely because tonight I genuinely want to express
minus restrictions. Especially so because I was feeling extremely low
since morning and he made it a brighter day for me, or atleast he tried
to. I am so used to giving that sometimes I seem to forget how it feels
to be at the recieving end. Therefore, I am grateful to you for being
there for me just when I needed someone to give me a push. Now that I
feel much better about myself, I am able to think rationally again.
Coming
back to swimming, I just realized how out of form I am given that I
haven't swum in the last year or so. I really hope this trip
materializes because I would love to take a dip in the pool before
summer waves goodbye. I remember how we used to practice twice daily --
before and after school. My fitness was on an all time high then. Every
Saturday we would run all the way to Ganesh Tok and back. This
may be a challenge now but, back then, I would have given anyone a run
for their money. Those were such wonderful days. Now a double round of
MG Marg is enough to tire me out.
We
had a long day today but it has been a while since we spent some time
together. Now I shall sleep with a content mind and heart. I know I have
many lessons to learn still, some more battles to fight. All in good
time. For now I must accept this result as fate and move on.
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