A conversation with God

Tsuklakhang Gompa

My mother tells me that, according to the Buddhist calendar, Wednesday is the most 'aupicious' day for me if I am to start a new venture or a job. Since the last week hasn't gone all too well, I was at the Palace monastery by 7:30 am, today being a Wednesday. As soon as the monk took his place next to the shrine, Mum asked me to think from my heart and let my thoughts flow freely. I was ready for my one-on-one with god this morning. Once the chanting started, I started my prostrations-- not the regular three, I must've completed some thirty prostrations by the time the prayer was over. I was trying to connect with Sangye with every count. Soon I found myself drifting along with the distant beating of drums and the clamming of metal on metal.

Kenchosum, 
As I stand in front of you today I realize that only you can help me find peace within myself. I have come in search of answers. Till date, I have had plans, an itinerary, a schedule, a list of things-to-do but not anymore. For the first time, in a long time, I am clueless. I am standing at crossroads and I know not how to decide. So I have come here to request you to show the way.

I may not be the most religious person around but I do have faith in a superior being. This faith gives me the strength and desire to move on to the next challenge. Today I am a confused soul but I am also confident that Kenchosum will show me the right way forward. The morning visit has brought some respite. Let us see what the coming week has in store for me now.

Peace. Confused. Peace. Confused.