Today your life begins

With the start of the winter semester, every night I get to listen to the sound of airplanes flying overhead. The winter landing route, I believe, passes right above my hostel. Initially I had a huge problem with the never ending flights and all the noise that followed. With time, all that changed. I can sleep through the night without a slight tremor so to say. This realization dawned upon me when I had a friend come over in my room. She said she was amazed at how cozily I slept while the flights kept her awake throughout the time she was here.

Tonight as the flights land and take off once again, it feels a little different. There is nostalgia in the air. Patrick star, my best friend as I lovingly call her, is going to start a new life. This city has given me so much, yet I am forever complaining about how I would never take up a job here. Star is leaving a life she had built for herself from scratch, only to start all over again. But this time she has someone to support her along the way. I wonder how it must feel to be in her shoes? We had such great times in the past. It is funny how at one point something feels certain and, suddenly, you reach a point where all that you thought was perfect has disintegrated into whole new parts. Do I sound confusing? I am only trying to reminisce about the past few years. A good friend is now married to a woman I am yet to meet. Star is on her way to Singapore tonight. Another couple broke up after a good nine years or so and may never get back together again. I have been through my share of ups and downs as well.

Happy times in Bhubaneshwar

Somehow I am glad for Star right now. She had the option to escape. I know for a fact that same won't be the case with me. Social trappings are the future. No matter how hard I try to look away, some issues keep haunting me. Had I not spoken about it, I would have stayed a little less wiser and unknown but so hasn't been the case. Well so far as these stories go, I am choosing to concentrate on the ending already. One doesn't see any point in being misled anyways.

(This one is for you Patrick Star)

I've been working hard so long

seems like pain has been my only friend

My fragile heart's been done so wrong

I wondered if I'd ever heal again.

Just like all the seasons never stay the same

all around me I can feel a change.

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone

and I've learnt how to leave it where it is

And I see that I was wrong

for ever doubting I could win.

Just like all the seasons never stay the same

all around me I can feel a change.

Life's too short to have regrets

so I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget

Only have one life to live

so you better make the best of it.

Today your life begins.