Decide(a)d

I spoke to a senior in the evening and it was a healthy talk because by the end of it, I was clear about a few important things. There is absolutely no point wasting two years floating in a sea of boredom and waiting for the synopsis to sail through. I don't have the patience to sit through all that just for a mere degree. This senior tells me that after four years his first chapter is finally seeing the light of day. Sheesh! Just the thought scares me. I think I've studied enough, atleast in this University, in this city. While getting through this University is difficult, I know for a fact that more than fifty percent of the students are here simply because it is equally hard to let go. And why not? You get a room at less than Rs 100/- a month, food is another super-saver deal, you have a generous scholarship plus the numerous advantages of being in a Marxist campus. Why would any person in their right mind want to burst the bubble? But I would. I sat for the entrance test because I was hell bent on this research. Today as I youtube how to make pie diagrams and line graphs, I go through my highs and lows. Some days I am able to write a couple of pages and other times I sit in front of my net book, completely blank, a confused soul. On Monday, I intend to meet my guide and see what she has to say about the progress I've made so far. I am hoping she can boost my confidence which seems to be getting minimal by the second.

This time, last year!

Today the country celebrated Holi and what did I do? I slept as late as 5am. I normally sleep early, the latest being 2am but last night my eyes felt like two matchsticks had been stuck between the eye-lids. By the time I woke up, it was post noon. What a waste of a day, really! Last year I had such an amazing holi. I celebrated it with the handful of Sikkimese students on campus. I went all out. I even tried Bhang which was a disappointment. This year we've all decided to forfeit. So by the time I got out to drop a friend till the auto stand, the campus was back to normal. Yet another holiday is over already. Time surely seems to be flying at concorde speed all of a sudden.