Often, when I set forth to
complete the usual chores, I wonder if this is what my life (is and) will
always be about. I have seen people around me waste their lives yet somehow they have managed to figure out a way in the end. When I visit all these government offices for the required data, I get an up, close and personal view of all the red tapism and nepotism which has plagued our bureaucratic system. Everybody wants to exercise authority and why not?! Tomorrow if I had a chance to be in the hot seat I would function no differently I suppose. But the question bothering me tonight is, when will my tomorrow come around? Is this really all my life is worth? Revisiting banks, making payments, chasing files? People say I need to be patient but sometimes waiting is a pain in the arse.
I feel the worst when I know I have been trying my best yet I don't reap the desired results. Being an Arien, and a woman at that, most people assume I am fiery, courageous and independent. I am all of the three. What I am not, though, is hard working. If I would put in as much effort as a few of my friends, I would have already gone places. There are days I am super productive but these are numbered. This monsoon I need to give myself that final push. If I can dedicate a said amount of time for an awesome future then this is the price I must pay. I'm waiting for my turn to arrive. I seriously am.
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