I'm a little confused since last night. If you meant one thing and the other person goes off on a tangent, are you supposed to apologize for something you didn't mean to say in the first place? How does this work? I seem to have forgotten the ways of the world. Such things upset me. I decided to relegate myself to my room all evening and today as well. This has to be a combination of that particular conversation and the fact that I am on my monthly cycle. Time and again I have mentioned how things that are important to some people seem petty to me. Why then am I being made to feel guilty? My brother tells me that I have an ego the size of an elephant. Is this the same ego coming into play? How can a harmless sentence change the mood in a matter of a few seconds? How is this episode going to end?
I am seriously angry with myself right now. I need to practice the art of silence whenever I get this urge to make a point. And why the hell does my personality come across as strong?! I know I am headstrong but I wish it wouldn't be so apparent in the first meeting itself. It's like people don't need to know me long enough to form that opinion. I don't even get a chance to prove otherwise. Yesterday I faced an interview and got through but this is one of those victories which needs careful planning. Should I go ahead with the training or shall I wait for something better? I can't even involve my clueless parents at this juncture. Plus the silent argument after the interview didn't leave me with a desire to share the details with them anymore. So, the only logical thing left to do was to watch The Holiday after a gap of some three months. Iris makes me happy everytime she speaks. Right from 'victims of a one-sided love affair' to 'I'm looking for corny in my life', she just brings a smile on my face. And the music by Hans Zimmer is an absolute delight. God! How I wish my life would run for two hours and end with credits. I really wish I could have that right now. There is so much chaos around me. I could do with two hours and The End.
I am seriously angry with myself right now. I need to practice the art of silence whenever I get this urge to make a point. And why the hell does my personality come across as strong?! I know I am headstrong but I wish it wouldn't be so apparent in the first meeting itself. It's like people don't need to know me long enough to form that opinion. I don't even get a chance to prove otherwise. Yesterday I faced an interview and got through but this is one of those victories which needs careful planning. Should I go ahead with the training or shall I wait for something better? I can't even involve my clueless parents at this juncture. Plus the silent argument after the interview didn't leave me with a desire to share the details with them anymore. So, the only logical thing left to do was to watch The Holiday after a gap of some three months. Iris makes me happy everytime she speaks. Right from 'victims of a one-sided love affair' to 'I'm looking for corny in my life', she just brings a smile on my face. And the music by Hans Zimmer is an absolute delight. God! How I wish my life would run for two hours and end with credits. I really wish I could have that right now. There is so much chaos around me. I could do with two hours and The End.
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