Snap and forget?

Today I took my usual round of banks and other important counters which is a routine when home. We have a new car waiting to make its entry in the family and ofcourse I am happy. My mother and brother are, perhaps, the most excited people in the house right now. My father though is a disturbed man. I understand there is a lot to mull over but some things need to be done given the circumstances. I wish my father would loosen up a little. He is my idol for all the principles he stood, and still stands, for but at times he leaves me wishing for more. Sometimes I see glimpses of him in me and it is the one inheritance I am not proud of. I have a slight headache which means I will be skipping dinner. Also, there are a couple of questions troubling me right now. I am going over every minute detail in my head and wondering if this is all that matters in the end? To be honest I always get sucked into this dilemma when I'm home. I wish I could be the frog in the pond and be happy swimming in my supposed universe, instead of hopping with every opportunity I get to see what lies beyond. Too much knowledge will kill you, they say. It feels like I'm dying a slow death.

For now, I am sitting in my brother's room after coffee with a new found friend. There are some people you just connect with and he is one such person. We have known each other properly all of three-four months and I am already grateful for his company. We think alike except for the fact that we should exchange sexes given our likes and dislikes. Jokes apart, he is a good guy and thoughtful too (so if you happen to be reading this do remember you are appreciated). Relationships teach you so much over the years. Some lessons leave a bitter taste in your mouth, still there are quite a few that make me smile. After all those months I spent giving myself a chance to believe in something, it all boiled down to a day. Years ago when I read a book called 'For one more day', I should have guessed back then that someday this would have meaning in my life too. I know I sound cryptic right now but this is one of those things I needed to jot down and get out of my system without letting anyone else know what I really want to say. So with this post another important chapter of my life comes to an end.

All this time I was the tubelight and I was foolish enough to believe otherwise.