There is always a lot of thought put into my blogs before I am ready to post them online. A lot of edit and undo followed by commas which get deleted and replaced by full stops at times or vice versa. But today is a different day. I am just online wanting to pen down my feelings right away!
A lot has happened in a short span. New people have made an entrance in my life, some have left without even saying goodbye, while there a few who I am not sure of. I was just wondering whether to call them my friends or not? Should they be in my friend's list in the first place? One minute you are thick buddies, making calls and updating each other on each and every new happening in your lives and the very next moment you are to behave like complete strangers. The awkward silence gets too hard for me at times. Do you think it's wrong on my part to take them as acquaintances now? Infact with acquaintances you exchange a simple 'hello' and then head off in opposite directions but with ex-friends it is hard to do that as well. So today I deleted those people from my friend's list. I'd rather have them as enemies than as make believe friends. I just pray no one gets hurt in the process.
My Facebook status update reads: 'The sun is shining down on me and I am god's favourite child for now'. Many must be left wondering just what could have happened in this girl's life that has made her so positive? The months of hard work I put in for my future goals has finally paid off and I am all set to realize them. What makes this sweeter is the fact that it is self achieved and I have not taken any help from anyone whomsoever (except for my mom and uncle).
Things seem to be running on the right track for me but yet again I face a certain dilemma. Just when my dreams start coming true, I have jumped into another mess. It is not really a mess - mess kind of situation but just a slight worry in my head. Just when you are sure that you want to be in this comfort zone for good, things come up and you have to move on. To tell the truth, I am very scared right now: scared about what lies ahead for me, scared about whether I can keep up with my commitments, scared whether I will be able to fulfill the expectations that rest so heavy on my shoulders. But just like a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do, I have to face these challenges and I plan to do so with a smile on my face.
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