Word of the day

CYNIC.

This is my word of the day.

What an eventful day. To realize that all of a sudden I am now no longer in the facebook list of two people I held very dear. To realize through a telephonic confirmation that I am 'not wanted' to be kept in touch with. To realize that relationships are hollow from the inside no matter what we show externally. To realize that people change their opinions faster than people change cars back home. To realize that it is very easy for people to forget and move on. To realize no matter how sincere one's thoughts maybe, at the end of the day tears are pending just two steps away.

As I drove down the main highway to submit my passport photograph for the talk by His Holiness which I will be attending the day after, I felt like a cynic. Cars going up and cars going down. People on the sidewalks as fashionable as young teens I saw in the streets of Aberdeen. Ours is supposedly a very Buddhist society but ours is a society of hypocrites. Forgetting the details of what Buddhist philosophy states, the very basic principles of attachment and materialism have seeped into our very veins. To desire is not the problem, ignorance is. We are all so ignorant of other beings and so selfishly motivated to further personal interests that we fail to consider even our immediate offsprings. How lame can we get? There was a time I felt I would not settle anywhere else but home. This place needs a change. Maybe I cannot infuse a massive enough change but in my own small way I know I can make a difference. Today I am very critical and don't see myself being here.

Every direction I look I see signboards that scream 'artificial'. Great people have had driving forces in various forms, I just hope what I am going through only makes me stronger and doesn't break me. I know I deserve better.