Its past 2 am and while everyone is warmly tucked under their warm duvets, I am typing this update under a dim light (the fancy covering of the bulb being a no-show among 2 of the 3 similar ones we have in this room).
My beloved brother tells me he is a little worried as I seem to be suffering from insomnia these days which could be related to some worry in my head. Honestly, I have two real worries right now. One is the upcoming examination. I was preparing very well for the day long paper before the Thailand trip but ever since coming back and, more importantly, being home I have had zero motivation guiding me through the ten kilo guide book. As a result, I have a little more than a week left and flipping five pages a day is not helpful at all. The second worry, or rather a confusion, is of ignorance. It was a proud moment, as well as a new low for me. For that split moment of a few seconds, I became a person I never thought I'd be.
I don't like the person I have become right now. It's time to buckle up and take charge of the situation. Also, time to log off the internet and try reading for a few more hours before heading to the monastery for some divine blessings in the morning.
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