Inner mine

A colleague at work wrote a poem today and asked me to write a reply on behalf of the female protagonist. Written below is the poem and my answer to it (which starts from "She smiled and said"). Hope it proves to be a nice read.

One day I closed my eyes to see the inner mine to see what's happening there,

Strangely I found someone

Someone I always thought of to be with

Someone I wanted to talk to the bottom of my heart

Someone I wanted to hold the hand and walk to the rest of life!

I went to her and said

You made me wait for 32 years

You made me cry in search of you

My eyes were looking corners and humans, trees and animals, mountains and desserts

My eyes were looking for you in every possible venture.

I said to her, O my dear where were you all these years?

Why did you make me wait for these many years?

Folding my hands unshaked, unmoved

With no heart in the worldly affairs

Like a saint in search of wisdom

You made me wait to the deeper of my thoughts.

I would have broken like a mirror, into pieces impossible to fix together,

I would have taken by the wind like the dust to the unknown world,

I would have collapsed to the sand to become a particle

But the idea of meeting you put me to one to wait for you these many years.

O my dear where were you all these years?

Why did you make me wait for these many years?

She smiled and said............

I walked my life with eyes wide open

To see, to cherish the bliss that was

Until I stumbled upon certain obstacles myself

Each seemingly more attractive than the past

The higher I climbed, the lower I fell

The deeper I dug, the muddier I became

Until the moment of truth arrived

It hit me in the face- hard and fast

Shattering illusions long ignored

Stormy weather it could not last.

.. And then one day I closed my eyes to see the inner mine

And all I found was emptiness inside

An infinite sea of nothing to explore

A broken heart, a wounded bird

An unknown entity scarred for life,

A run up the hill, a chase unworthy

One entangled in a web self created.

Even a mirror can be put together

The wind can be channelled to rightfully see

The sand that you talk about, a particle as you please

They seem like mere atoms, atoms that make you and me

'So wait a little longer', I say

You’ve waited long already

The search for me doesn’t end here

For what am I but a figment of your imagination?

Just dream a bit more and hope a day at a time

And when you’ll close your inner eyes again

You’ll realize I was never there really

For the someone that you thought I was

Was a shadow of yourself in me.