We humans seem to love the concept of new beginnings. A messy break up and you look forward to a fresh start, a new born in your arms and you feel like you have the power to change everything from that very moment, a brand new house and you want to set it up right from scratch with your own imagination.
New year 2010. A new start for me too (just like the rest of the world). When I sat down in my matchbox of a room a year and a half ago day dreaming about how it would be like when I would welcome 2010 into my life, I had a totally different vision. What followed was totally unexpected but beautiful. This year I don't intend to think half as much as I normally do. Suppressed feelings? I may have some but with time I will learn to forgive, not to forget. I cried for weeks blaming certain ghosts from the past for taking advantage of me. Today, as I sit here and write this, I feel no different. I was at par with them and, if at all, I was indeed taken for a ride it was only because I willingly gave them the power to do so.
Over time you learn how to question things and seek answers for them. I have learnt the most in 2009 than I ever did in all the years combined. Joby, my friend at the restaurant, said the most motivating thing to me the other day. What is a ship built for? Not to spend its life at the harbour. The ship that faces the roughest seas and travels the most is the one that everyone admires. We are the ships. We are the ones who have left the docks but we will return back one day and when that day comes everyone will respect us for our efforts.
With certain goals lined up for myself this year, I don't plan to let the setbacks of yesteryears affect me. 2010 will be a year I will re-invent myself.
New year 2010. A new start for me too (just like the rest of the world).
great one...it was really thought provoking to read tht motivating note of that ship...hm...ships yet to return to their docks..
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